Sunday, November 15, 2009

The Happy Post

I walked the dog for almost an hour this morning and feel good. It always amazing (yes, I am a slow learner) to me when exercise can cause a distinct shift in attitude.

So today is the Happy Post (or Grateful post):

1. I got my oil changed, radiator flushed, and window wipers replaced yesterday. Non-squeaky wipers - happy.

2. We went to my favorite Indian place last night and the service didn't suck - very happy.

3. I made dining reservations for our Thanksgiving weekend extravaganza - giddy.

4. Law school doesn't seem so daunting today. I still have 2 major papers and multiple exams to contend with but I feel better about the stuff I am doing. One of the papers is important to me. The other is starting to seem much more interesting. And I see myself improving in another class. Happy.

5. I started Weight Watcher's and weighed in at less than I thought I would - ecstatic. I ate healthy for most of yesterday and started today with a bowl of oatmeal - feeling good.

All in all not a bad week. Rough start because my black moods are intrusive and overwhelming. But I am using cognitive therapy techniques to readjust my thinking. For instance, I had fat dreams all last night (people laughing and making rude comments). I have these sometimes and wake up feeling very low. But today, I threw off the covers, put on sweats, got the dog and walked for a long time. Cleared the head.

To all those out there that are struggling with negative feelings stemming from LS, I don't have any good advice. It's all been said. But I hope that you can find something that will get you through this. From now until graduation, I am going to try (I said try, dammit) to keep a more positive spin. Mom always said to fake it and maybe it would happen.


Virgin In The Volcano said...

I'm faking it too. But it can't make things any worse to pretend that things are better than the seem.

I don't think that made any sense, but I'm working on the third paper of the weekend and kinda sorta want to die. Or just watch copious amounts of television with a good brown ale and a box of Cheeze-its. Cheeze-bits and beer beat dying. Any day.

Glad to hear you're in the right frame of mind and good luck with all of your work.

Eliza said...

Thanks. I am trying to fake caring right now that any work I am doing is worth a crap.

Your load of work far outweighs mine. I think 2 papers is plenty and the fact that one is a group paper takes some of the pressure off. Plus, I can't do literary theory or criticism worth a flip. Every flippin' paper came back with "this is a circular argument."

Hope you get that beer and Cheeze-its break.

(In)Sanity Gal said...

Eliza, So glad you're feeling good, and it was good for me to read the post. Exercise seems to be one of the first things to go when I get busy, and it's so wrong that it happens that way. Because I KNOW that exercise makes me feel better. And yet I can't seem to get myself to make time for it in my day. If I feel like I need down time, I just end up watching tv or something (a la virgin), and I don't actually end up feeling any better. Anyway, I'm not sure anything's going to change at this moment, but I appreciate the reminder. Hope you keep it up!