Tired all of the time

Wow, 2 posts in one day. Guess I am on a roll.

I have been feeling tired for a long time now. It comes and goes, but lately it stays for much longer than usual. Everyone gets tired, I know that. But when this happens, I feel like I am in a brain fog. My thoughts get scattered and it's difficult to focus at all. For instance, right now, I feel as if I am typing through molasses. I could literally curl up on the floor and go to sleep. For a long time I thought I wasn't getting enough sleep. But that doesn't explain the vast majority of it.

So here are the possibilities:

1. Being overweight. But I did have major bouts when I was thin. Doesn't rule it out, though.

2. Poor nutrition. This really could be the source of all evil. I am terrible about eating right. I become a child when a meal rolls around. Right down to a pout.

3. Lack of exercise. Again, very good possibility here. The strange thing is that when I do exercise, I feel much, much worse. However, that may just be the initial phases. Maybe that floodgate of energy will crank open once I make exercise a habit.

4. Sneaking smokes. Yep, I have a tendency for lying to myself about smoking.

5. Too much caffeine and too little water. I live for coffee, always have. I was chugging the stuff in high school. Maybe it's time to let it go.

Okay, so maybe the whole losing weight based on good nutrition and exercise will actually result in a huge increase in energy (or at least fewer days like today where it's almost painful to do anything).

Here's to me getting off my ass.

The FINAL year

Okay, we are about to start school. We start late here, not sure what the reasoning is, but I love it. I had a few weeks to do very little and loved it.

I can't believe I didn't blog at all this summer. Quick summary:

1. We did indeed nurse a cat back to health. And it freakin' cost a mint. His name is now Vacation, because that is exactly where all of our vacation money went. We are just lucky we didn't book far in advance.

2. I worked for a firm in the South this summer. The firm was great, the people were good folks. That is high praise in Southern.

3. I got an offer from said firm. Relieved.

4. We lost fabulous tenants that we would have like to have stayed the whole three years. But when a house falls in your lap, you have to purchase. So now, we are kind of sweatin' about renting.

5. We stayed at home for vacation (see #1) and had a great time. So much to do around this city, so little time.

And now school is looming like the dark specter that haunts your dreams. I don't wanna!

Random tidbits for 1L's coming in this year:

1. Advice is all well and good, but frankly, until you get your first semester grades you don't know what works for you.

2. I didn't start getting good grades until I stopped using a computer in class.

3. I know people that study like fiends ranked low and those that don't, ranked high. And vice versa.

4. For the vast majority of people, law school blows. Most get over the whole, wow isn't this intellectually stimulating crap.

5. Don't believe the administration. Jobs are freakin' hard to come by. I don't care what the stats say. I didn't get even a nibble until I thought to look in my home town.

6. Decorate with liveliness. Don't you want to spend time in a place that has your name written all over it?

7. Laugh, laugh, laugh. Laughter reduces stress hormones. Laughter actually works abdominal muscles. Laughter just plain feels good.

8. Be kind to that woman or man in your class that seems odd. You never know. Plus, you just might prevent someone becoming an addict or worse.

9. Keep as many parts of you that make you who you are. Okay, kind of convoluted.

That's it. Oh, one more thing. I am doing weigh in Wednesdays. Since I keep blathering about losing weight, I am going to post my weight each week (yep, my real weight). The plan is simple: (1) stop eating out; (2) exercise everyday; (3) sleep 8 hours; (4) eat around 1500-1700 calories a day; and (5) drink tons of water.

If anyone is still reading, how ya doin'?

The Weekend

Yes, I bitch about working but I love the law school on weekends in the summer. There is no one here. I love the quiet, going into the student rec room. No one playing pool or watching tv or playing video games. Just an empty room where I can spread out my stuff and work in the silence. And honestly, the best part? The absolute best part is that there are no intense pre-lawyers discussing the import of Marbury v. Madison, contracts, torts, etc. No equally intense, but even less inviting, person discussing their GPA in the abstract or their awesome new summer job or whatever else the most arrogant asshats discuss in front of an audience. Or bemoaning their workload, etc. I love the silence.

Got a job, may lose a volunteer position, and overwelmed

I am awful. I procrastinated this last semester worse than any other semester. The problem is that I did so with my responsibilities outside of law school. I did fairly well at keeping up in classes. But my home is a shambles.

During Spring Break I had an interview with a great law firm. Or at least it seems great to me. Young, relative to many other firms I interviewed with. And not age young, necessarily. Young as in lots of room to grow, populated by energetic people excited about what they do, and the possibility to create my own niche in a good town. Not where I thought I would be but where I could do a lot.

Now I am afraid my procrastination is catching up with me. I was a volunteer for an organization and they ominously contacted me after a very long absence, on their part. I assume that I am going to be unvolunteered. I have never lost a job before, not even a volunteer position. Oh well. At this point, I will just say okay, sorry it didn't work out. Hopefully my ego will survive through it.

And I have a massive amount of work in the next 4 weeks. Ugggg.

And to top it off, we have been nursing a cat back to health and it has been a bit of an uphill battle. I am so tired of vets and trying to force medications into the cat.

Happy New Year

In light of the New Year, 2009...good-bye 2008, I hate's ya...I am making resolutions. And much like ImNobody, I want resolutions that are concrete, real. I have thought about this for a week now and I now I think I have the ones I want.

1. Exercise aerobically everyday, for at least 15 minutes...and housework counts. I can do anything physical, I just have to get it in every day. And do not take the easy way. Walk to a further bus stop, take stairs, take breaks to cross the river periodically.

2. Two to three times a week do strength training of some kind. Start with pushups, my core exercises and a few other weight exercises.

3. I want to eat real food, slow food for at least 3/4 of all meals each week. That means that I have to plan out the week for cooking, do it simply (pull out the slow cooker for beans and stews). I want to stop treating my body like a garbage dump. I love food, I love to cook. There is no reason that law school should stop this. Get back to steel cut oatmeal with walnuts and berries. Real cream in my coffee. Slow cooked dried black beans with coriander, onion, and mint.

4. Be the one that is not busy. I love the philosophy but haven't been able to quite internalize it. This year I will spend more effort to this end. The one that is not busy is the one that is able to focus be it work, play, or anything. And not only focus, but shift focus relatively easily between tasks, etc.

That's a lot, but it's all things that are important to me.

Wish me luck and good luck for the New Year to every one.

Blog may go away

I am taking on a lot next semester and I wonder if I am using this blog to accomplish anything anyway.

I know I have said this before

but I wonder if I could really blog everything that I am doing for the career search. OR potentially turn it into a book. I really do not see many sources for those on the bottom of the GPA. Well, I will see and start keeping copious notes just in case.